 About Engtovo Astrology Birth Chart | Astrology Walk-In Chart
engtovo at gmail dot com 47 in June of 2010, a cancer by sign, single with no children, (and just one ex-husband) although my mother and I raised and home schooled my nephew Eric for the better part of his life. I love photography and rock and roll, 50’s – Current, but not the heavy duty rap, some classical is ok but opera annoys the hell out of me. I love to take road trips, although way too many of them in my life have included moving, I guess I am a bit of a gypsy. I was born in the Minneapolis area and was there til about 13 and then became a Seattle girl well into adulthood. Since then I have lived in Hawaii, Alaska, Arizona, Colorado and Montana and now plan a move to Oregon. I just go where ever my intuition guides me. I am pretty laid back I like movies and yes, I’ll admit it, I like TV. It’s not on all the time but I have my shows that I get hooked on. Survivor, American Idol, Jericho this year and lets not forget Stargate SG1 and Atlantis. Unlike most metaphysicians I am not a vegetarian and have no plans to become one, my body does best on low carbs, lots of protein although I have not been too good about that this year and I’m feeling it lol Yes I see more bowflex and no candy in my future, it’s my official psychic reading for my self. Speaking of psychic readings I don’t believe in them for two reasons, 1. People charge an outrageous amount of money for them, and lots of the people are not even any good if they are psychic at all. There has to be a better way to spend your cash folks! If you can’t think of one, send me the cash, I won’t give you a reading but I won’t have a problem spending your money if you just wanna give it away anyway lol 2. It steals people’s self reliance, we are each supposed to find our answers within and trust our own intuition, it is one thing to point someone in the direction and another to just tell them what’s going to happen in their life. We have free will! A psychic, even a good one only sees the most likely probability and that could change tomorrow because of choices we make. (thank god!) Conscious Sobriety I practice what I would call conscious sobriety. I was never an alcoholic and am not part of AA. I abstain from all mind altering substances by choice. This includes all the various plants spiritual people use to heighten their consciousness and obtain spiritual visions. That time has passed! The planetary vibration is sufficiently high enough to reach out for spiritual growth and vision without the use of chemical substances natural or artificially produced. Any one who can’t grasp this is not using the substances for spiritual purpose anyway. Chemically altering your consciousness at this point if you are truly on a spiritual path is LOWERING your vibration. Now because I liberal in my views on other people’s lives, if you want to lower your vibration, have at it. Just don’t lie to me about how your are advancing your path by doing it! BTW things like Prozac & Zoloft and so forth are mind altering substances, as is fluoride and these should be avoided if you care about your vibration. If you are diagnosed with bipolar disorder and simple lithium won’t balance you then there is another issue to be found because true bipolar disorder is a chemical lithium imbalance. Doctors have become drug pushers for the big pharma companies, especially shrinks. If you care about being on a spiritual path then you have to take control and personal responsibility of what you put into your body. It is not normal to think a problem on any level will be solved by taking a pill. My Politics Occasionally I write about politics and world events. I am an independent who has never belonged to a political party. I would consider myself personally conservative and politically liberal. I feel those who are truly conservative should be able to monitor their own moral perspectives without trying to force them on other people. I feel organized religion should stay out of the law making business, and politicians have a responsibility to represent all the people, not just those who agree with their own religious perspectives. For those confused on how one is both conservative and liberal I will say this, I am PRO CHOICE, I’ve known many women over the years who had abortions, it was not an easy choice for any of them, and every one of them made the correct choice for themselves. Personally I would not under any circumstances have an abortion, that is MY choice. I would consider a new life growing within me to be a sacred gift to me from the Creator. To me a child brought into the world by a woman who does not feel this way is not being done any favors! To all the religious right who obsess on controlling everyone in the world and forcing them to live by their small world view, I say, when you can provide food clothing and shelter for EVERY single mother and child on the planet now, then maybe the rest of us will stop and listen to your bitching about abortion. With 6.5 billion people on the planet, a huge portion of whom are not living with their basic needs met, your obsession to force women who are not ready to be mothers, to have babies is at best disgusting! The truth is women from all societies had herbs to bring on their menstruation which was simply herbal abortion and It would be great to get back to that natural way of things. There is no reason for women to suffer through mechanical abortion. Each woman should have 100% control of her own body PERIOD. While I am at it every parent who cannot be proven abusive should have complete control of their own children. Schooling, vaccinations, healing techniques, alternative or mainstream etc. are all things the government and big business should stay the hell out of. Refusal to get chemotherapy for example is NOT abuse. One could argue substantially that it is the chemotherapy that is abusive. Threatening to take people’s children away because one parent’s choices are not mainstream and accusing them of abuse or not loving their children is just fascism pure and simple. The Heavy Spirit Stuff The information on this blog and Spirit Nexus has come through directly from spirit. Although I may have some items on the site that are expressions of people I know, the majority of the site will remain dedicated to the work spirit has laid out before me. It is a sharing of my inner journey and a place to share yours, not a replacement for inner work through outward seeking. There are not archives of other peoples channeling, or excerpts of their books. This is home, what you find here more than anything else will be a reflection of the work that I do, and the work of the people that are in my life and that I respect. This work is personal ascension, and planetary healing. The ascension and healing process is full of raw emotions. It is stripped down and real, unfortunately it is not all “light and love” and new age dogma. This process requires discernment and truth, and the willingness to set boundaries in a world where oneness is the ultimate goal. I am a grid worker/teacher from the Order of Enoch, working to help raise the vibration of the Earth Mother and her inhabitants. I am a clairaudient visionary, channel, intuitive healer, writer, and creator of tools for healing and growth. I work closely with the energy grid system of the planet, cleaning, maintaining, and creating vortex and leyline systems with my spirit guidance. An important part of this work is earth ceremony, especially work with the drum. My unique knowledge is a form of earth shamanism, taught directly to me by my spirit guidance and the Earth Mother, through years of clairaudience and meditation. My guidance has carefully prepared me for this earth walk, not allowing this knowledge to be diluted by filtering it through the teachings of others. I teach discernment and empowerment, allowing others the power of their personal truth. I came to the earth to walk the path to full remembrance of my divinity, and share this path with those who desire to know the divinity within themselves. This ascension path I call The Return to Eden. It is a series of meditative techniques for processing through karmic lessons, returning to a state of natural perfection. This is called becoming a Dharlja The healing work I do is always offered freely. It is given freely to me from the Creator and to be passed on to whomever is in need of this energy. The work is a combination of hands on healing, along with energy work on the mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies. Drums, rattles , crystals bowls, and Tibetan bells and bowls are used as well as a wide variety of stones and crystals. Although I am willing to work on physical ailments, I feel it is preferable to work with people before the thoughts or emotional issues affect the physical expression. The energetic grid system can be repaired on all levels, bringing the person into harmony, centering, and balance It is my belief that we are all divine beings of the Creator. It is my desire to reflect this truth to all people that I come in contact with. Allowing myself to see each and every person in their perfection, clears away previous judgments in myself and in them. This is the attitude that I choose to put forth into all of my spiritual work, and life. I see those coming to me for healing, as already perfect, thus facilitating the expression of their God given divinity. I know we have come to the time that we are required to go within ourselves and find those things that are not in alignment with our true self, to bring us into harmony with the Earth Mother and all our relations. My first priority is always to continue to work on my self, for only in healing ourselves will we ever reach the place of peace and harmony in the world around us. We change the world one person at a time, and the only one we have the power to change is our self. My Photography I started taking pictures when I was about 12 with an old polaroid. Got my first 35mm at the age of 15 and loved taking photos around Washington state. In high school I took my photography into working on the school paper and editing the yearbook. After graduation I continued to take photos for several years until I was too broke for film and my old Olympus OM10 started to not work properly. That led to a hiatus in my photography for several years. A couple years back I made the leap into digital with a 6mp Kodak z760. Earlier this year I got an Olympus 550UZ for more zoom capacity. I love Digital!! I can shoot to my heart’s content and simply delete experiments that didn’t work. I would love to get a digital DSLR when I can afford one, but for now I am photographing the local neighborhood here in Pagosa Springs, Colorado, and reigniting my passion for photography. My Poetry Most of my poetry is about my spiritual journey. Some of
it is quite raw dealing with family issues I am processing at the time. I
don’t really edit my poems. They come out as they are, and I share them
whether I like them or not
For many years I really didn’t write any poetry. Then I met a most wonderful friend named Martina. She is herself an accomplished poet and when she heard I hadn’t written in years she would have none of that! She tasked me to write again and once I started I never stopped. Now I share all the poems at the request of my spirit guides. They don’t want me to ever hold them so tightly again. Maybe sitting here on the internet they will rarely or never be read, but the fact that they can be read prevents me from hiding aspects of myself that it is not healthy for me to hide.
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I had a whole book full of poems and song lyrics that I burned in 1991.
I burned them because of how close to my heart I held them, I didn’t want
anyone to ever see them if anything happened to me. It is one of the only
things I have done in my life that I actually regret. Included in this
book was a whole bunch of poetry that I wrote processing the stillbirth of
my only daughter Samantha in 1985. At this point I think there were poems
there that may have been healing for other women who experienced a
stillbirth, and I wish I could capture them back. Only two poems survived
from that time Is Within Me I consciously kept
and Glass Rock I found in a bunch of papers a
couple years after the burning.
