 Completion
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August 1, 1999
Completion is a rather illusionary concept as you move through your life and
issues. It appears to the average metaphysician that an issue has been completed
with absolute clarity only to find months, or years later that another version
of the same issue is ready to be tackled yet again. Take heart, completion does
indeed exist. There will come a time when you have truly reached the core issue
for a plague of fears and problems that have followed you around for the greater
part of you life in various degrees of severity, so to speak. Oft times these
stubborn issues come to completion with the realization that they are far
different than what was previously understood. Let us speak for a moment of
Engtovo, as it is a fine example of that which we speak and we know she won't
mind…
There have been issues that we have worked with her diligently on for the
past 10 years. She saw them as separate issues, control for example,
abandonment, neediness, clinging, you understand the nature of what we are
saying here. These she learned to own and to examine. She looked deeply at the
relationships of her birth family. How she relates with her siblings as well as
her relationship with her parents. She gleaned out these issues, and others, and
searched for their origin and original cause. Some issues she found past life
patterns and connection were involved. Others were clearly related to parental
patterns. She looked at the passing down of the legacy of these behaviors from
her parents to herself and her siblings and on to the next generation with her
sister's 3 children. Vowing to heal them before she would pass them on to
children of her own. This dogged determination on that front brought her to
face, dead on, many unpleasant belief structures in herself and those she loves.
She would lament of the never-ending barrage of yet the same lesson disguised
as something different. The same types of people coming in and out of her life
to reflect the core issues that she was, as yet, unaware of. Some things are
easy to spot. Find anyone who doesn't have a controlling person somewhere in his
or her family. But find someone who understands the origins of that person's
control and the pattern there set and this would be a rarity indeed. It is these
origins of what are the obvious personality expressions, that we find to be not
in our best interests, that are the real key, the real issue, the core issue.
If you know you have a pattern of control for example, you may have come to
answer yourself in this way. Why am I going through this again? Well it's that
control thing I have going, when will I get over that and learn to let go. That,
dear friends, is a step in the right direction, but do not forget to keep
stepping! There is more, because when you will learn to let go is when you
complete the inward journey that will allow you to understand why you have the
control pattern to begin with. Yes, likely there is a family pattern that you
learned, but why did you choose that family? How has having a control pattern
served you?
Let's get back to Engtovo for a moment. The pattern at hand that has
unraveled this year is one with her father. Abandonment is the obvious aspect,
as well as what the family terms the oblivious factor. Do any of you have
someone in your family who is simply oblivious of what is going on with every
one else around him or her? Someone who forgets things that are important to the
people they love. Doesn't write or call, not out of anger, he or she means to,
but has the got too busy syndrome? This is a family pattern with
Engtovo's family. It has caused a lot of pain to various members of the family
and has recently come to a place in the sun for healing. This is not a new
pattern to anyone it is one that has been dealt with on many levels over many
years. Engtovo's ex-husband was a similar man also bringing much pain forth in
this ritual family pattern.
Now at a time of great emotional opening and after many times around the
merry-go-round actively seeking to heal these wounds, a door is opened and the
core issue is presented. It was simple, almost too simple to fathom the
intensity of its effect to this point in her life. The greatest aspect of this
healing is this; it is not simply about father, only reflected in his patterns.
It has fundamentally connected all of the other surface issues that she has been
working on, and it has had a significant positive impact on her overall
life plan! Upon knowing this and understanding it, the letting go can begin. The
reasons for choosing these patterns as a Soul/Spirit being understood allow for
it to be complete. It has served its purpose well. All of the players in this
life can be thanked for their very participation in achieving the purposes of
the divine within her.
No lesson has to continue to go on forever. They are not however going to go
away simply by wishing them away or denial of their existence. It takes courage
and perseverance to go within over and over again. Digging deeply into the soil
of your shadow self. It takes true desire to know God through self. What is true
desire you may ask? Let us explain it to you as we recently did to Engtovo, to
help her understand it in a new way that enabled her to see how other people
participated in her own expression of true desire.
True desire always serves the whole. In this we mean it is unselfish, even
when it appears to some to be benefiting the self. Example of this is doing what
you know absolutely is right for you in your heart, with no intention of hurting
anyone else, even though someone else may feel hurt, due to their own issues of
wanting to control your actions. Now of course this person(s) having the
controlling desire will probably not see in the situation that their hurt is due
to a desire to control you and will blame you for hurting them. True desire
understands your right to live free of emotional control.
True desire always brings you closer to God, it comes from your Soul/Spirit,
not your head. It is not about material things in nature although following a
true desire may create a material manifestation of something that would serve
the expression of the desire. It is not about sexuality although it is very
closely related to the creation process. It is in essence a fire that burns
deeply and brightly that fuels you on your journey through life. You are all
learning about your Soul/Spirit in life, even those who are consciously unaware.
A true desire may motivate one person to excel, as an Olympic athlete, the one
who never gives up, never turns away, even in moments of doubt and
discouragement. A life given as a testament to the power of a life focused on
the goal of the Soul/Spirit, even if the athlete is unaware that this ability to
move forward undaunted comes from the God source within. A true desire could be
a Ghandi who has a vision of a more peaceful world and follows that vision all
of his life forsaking other things. A true desire is a couple determined to give
their children a better life, no matter the adversities they face in the
process.
Most every positive organization in the world started due to the true desire,
the fire, of one person. That true desire called forth others whose fires were
stimulated to assist in its manifestation.
There are many people who came to experience the world without true desire in
their heart. Some floundering, finding it difficult to put themselves into any
aspect of their life fully. Some oblivious that there is something that burns
inside of others that motivates them and lights their way through good and bad
times. Some come with a fire bright and allow it to be smothered by others
around them, or allow it to go out from neglect or apathy. Some come intending
to find the time in their life to light the fire and keep it burning, and may or
may not accomplish that intention. Puberty is often time for true desire to
flame, but sometimes is thwarted by authority figures in a young person's life.
It is never to late to kindle the flame of the divine within. It requires
only an intention to do so and honesty with yourself. The fire will need to be
tended and kept up, until it has reached a point where it takes on a life of
it's own. Part of tending your fire is setting boundaries in your life and this
brings us back to these issues of Engtovo. There are people in the world that
feel threatened or lessened when they interact with those whose fire burns
brightly. They are unaware that the fire within is their own birthright and they
can kindle the same in self. These people subconsciously or at times consciously
seek out ways to douse your fire.
These are the people that Engtovo found she surrounded herself with since
childhood. Her father and siblings, the men she got involved with. Her mother
had done the same, thus she was repeating a long pattern. The two women together
have spent a ten-year journey to find the core of this pattern, having to look
at many other complexities of their mother daughter relationship in the process.
Now it is a simple as this. Soul/Spirit choosing this pattern allowed them both
to keep their fire alive and kicking. How is this you may ask? Let us say these
are strong women in earth life and strong Spirits on the other side. They both
have an aspect of the divine within of knowing of the unlimited. This knowing
burned in the fire of true desire. When someone tried to snuff their fire, they
got mad and said NO. Now, granted for years they had no idea what they were
saying no to. They only knew that it had to be said. They found in this pattern
that they could not count on other people in their lives and learned to count on
themselves. They choose this pattern to ensure that in these times of apathy
they would not forget to tend their fire. We tease Engtovo that she kept it
burning brightly at times out of spite for those who would like to see it go
out.
The completion of this pattern in it's fullness is not without pain, as the
experience of the pattern in it's totality has been painful. Engtovo has chosen
not continue her relationship with her father. Not out of anger, but out of
knowing that his role in interacting with her Soul/Spirit is complete. They have
love in their hearts for one another, and yet true desire dictates that she does
what she absolutely knows is right for her in her heart. That is to be free of
those who would want to see her fire go out. It is this same desire that has
fueled her whole path to Godself, and yet the transition is not without feelings
of guilt, as society dictates that you have a relationship with all family
members unless they have beaten or raped you, or some other such violation. In
truth you are all family, and the creator only wants you to hold love in your
hearts for one another. You are divine Soul/Spirits with the right to choose an
environment for your lives that feeds your growth. In this case the old
environment did feed her growth, but now upon illumination would no longer serve
this purpose.
In the 10-year process of moving this energy out of her life there have been
other factors that have come into play. The issue of lack and abundance for
example is one oft talked about in metaphysical circles. Lack stems from feeling
that you have no ability to keep your fire burning. When surrounded by those who
are trying to douse your fire, is it any wonder you are grasping for wood?
Emotions involved in these patterns can often lead to feeling the fire is too
difficult to keep going, much as trying to start wood that is soggy and wet…
hopelessness, helplessness & despair often result. Psychic attack and
difficulties of this nature are like having termites in your wood supply leaving
you needy and unbalanced. You have the choice to move forward with your true
desire and let go of these people and situations in you life. Living free is
your God given right. It may take more time for some than others to move through
these situations until they clear. You are then ready to face any guilt you may
feel, and make the choice that is right for yourself and yet wholly unselfish,
as it is a choice bringing you closer to Godself which always serves the whole.
In the illumination of this core issue, Engtovo will be able to reach out to
others and call into her life those who she can count on and build a foundation
of healing that will serve everyone involved, as well as future generations.
This serves her Soul/Spirit's life plan and meshes with the life plans of others
in a way that serves God as her fire of true desire intended.
Yes my friends completion is possible right here and now, in this life.
Choose joy and fuel the fire of true desire to know the divine within and
you will have the freedom of your divine inheritance, with all the rights and
abilities that your inheritance affords you.
Blessings
Archemedes & Bestali through Engtovo
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